Right now, I am not reverting to my old self but I am being asked to pretend to not express how I feel. Patience is a hard lesson to learn and like I was telling one of my friends last night when she was asking me about her girl problems... All problems that face girls begin and end with men and so really it was boy issues... But the issue always is that we as men are able to stay friends after a period of dating up to a point. Once we break that point in the dating period, we can't just be friends if the relationship ends. I have been able to stay friends with almost everyone I have ever dated except one and that relationship still needs closure if it really is over. The reason I mention patience beforehand as well as pretending is because right now, the only way I can stay friends with her is to pretend that all of our memories and experiences and good times that we shared... every smile, every laugh, each touch... that none of it ever happened and that it never existed. Yet those are the very things that binds me to her with what feels like an inseparable bond. I still love her and I know what is expected of me is to act as if I don't. She knows. And I know that I need to be there for her as a friend but I can't do or say anything about how I continue to break down inside each day as I wait to see if she will ever realize that no one can ever love her or accept her or forgive her like I can.
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